"Do you know what it is like to hate yourself so much you drive the ones you love away to spare them from having to deal with your constant problems and the pain you cause?"

Yet no one understands why. Other than you people being a bitch, this is why I don't want anyone close to me anymore. I've told you guys somehow somewhere my brain cells, they're going crazy. I am going insane. For some reason I think I'm mentally unstable. Fuck. This. Shit. I want to cry right now. You think it doesn't hurt but it is fucking killing me inside. I hope you understand why I'm doing all this. :'/

Yesterday I met Mairah,Apik and Amy. Besides the fact that yesterday was one of the worst days I've had in 2010, I had fun with the 3. Thank you. Amy came over for supper. Well,that was the initial plan. Okay no,the initial plan was to have Apik to come to but he wanted to go home and sleep so yeah it was only Amy and I. Anyway,Amy stayed till 6 in the morning and then he went home. Thank you Amy xx

My aunt said my cousins came over to my place while I was sleeping. They tried to wake me up but yeah I guess I was too tired. Hah. No plans today -yet. Anyone wants to hang out ?