Day 4 - A sibling

This is for...guess who? No,not my closest sibling,Huda. This is for you Suffiy. Yes out of the 3 of you I have chose to write this one for you. There's no need to question why,right? I just wish.. we were normal. I mean we ARE normal but I just want you to talk to me as much as I talk to our other siblings. We don't even look at each other. Yes,I'm dying to talk to you but I don't know how to. I want to be close to you and I want you to treat me like any other elder brother treats their younger sister. I want to have heart to heart conversations with you. I want to at least smile at you when we see each other outside and not act like we don't know each other at all. Do you remember the days you would hug me in pictures? We would fight over the TV? Or whatever. That was like what about 10 god damn years ago? I just want us to talk,not that much I'm asking for right? But I guess that'd take forever because frankly, I do not have the guts to break the ice. Plus I bet, you wouldn't even bother or might think I'm crazy or something. Sometimes I just wish to go back in time,when we were a lot younger and pause time for awhile,so at least I get to feel love from my only brother once again. Obviously that's impossible but yeah. You might think I bloody hate you but actually I don't, maybe sometimes I do but no, most of the time I do love you. I hope you're doing well in the army and yeah god bless.