I hate the lonely nights I've to go through everyday. It's not that I don't have anyone to talk, fact is there's a lot to choose from. Like I said on my twitter, no matter how many people I talk to, it just won't fill this emptiness I feel inside. I don't know. I just can't adapt to this yet. Of course he's doing okay in there. He wakes up in the morning and then trains like hell till evening. If he has the time to call me he will, if not he has to do some other things and only get to talk to me around 10. The difference is major. He has to live by the rules. He has things to do before calling me at 10. As for myself, I only have school till about the latest is 3. And what do I do for the next 7 hours? Something I have to deal with almost everyday.

I just needed to let this out. I am emotionally drained. I admit, in fact I lack of attention. I feel so...naked without him. It's like, I'm so used to his presence and being around him every single day. Then suddenly something takes that away from me and I just haven't learnt how to adapt yet. I don't even know where to start. Yes I do go to sleep when he sleeps, but I'll just keep waking up numerous times in the middle of the night. I just can't tell my fucking self not to worry. I am not worried actually, I just am not used to this at all.

I can't do this :/

Pictures of the other day's fishing trip