You have never said that to me before. How can I not worry? Papa, please come home. I'll be waiting patiently in my room, like how you will always wait for me till you fall asleep every time I'm not home or go back home in the wee hours. Looking back, you seriously don't deserve to be treated like this Pa. I am sorry, I know I've said sorry too many times. You forgive me for all my wrong doings, no matter how big they are. You looked at me in the eyes all the time and tell me I can change. I don't mean to hurt you until this much.
I don't know how the hell you raised me and give me chances for 18 fucking years Pa. I love you so much Pa, I know it's not visible to you but I really do.

Come home Pa, I need you, I will always need you no matter what. YOU, are the best I ever had. No man can replace where you sit in my heart, not even Ariff. You know I love him but you don't know I love you even more than that. Ain tunggu Papa, okay? Ain sayang Papa :'(