DblO on the 7th with Baby and his friends. Zouk with my girls on the 9th. Zoo on the 13th. 

I don't really dance a lot in clubs unless I'm drunk because I'll feel awkward. Besides, I don't really see the wow factor that most kids see in clubbing these days. It's pretty boring, especially when you're sober. Tsk. 

Too much has been happening in my life. I look like I'm enjoying life, but fact is I'm not. I die a little inside everyday. Ibu, Papa, I fucking miss you. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. Things are a bit too personal for me to share it here. I wasn't there for Nenek's 100th day kenduri. I just wish that things were right. I just wish things will be better.

Anyway, my birthday is in exactly 10 days time...I'm not excited,frankly. Sigh, no one has heard anything from  Faiz, Sortz said he didn't leave any last message to anyone except for Lisa. That's how much he loves her. Although he didn't leave any last words for me, I know he wants me to take care of myself, respect my parents always and keep my relationship alive and going. I miss him so much.

I foresee me lying down in bed with no plans on my birthday and New Year's Eve. I have no idea why I asked for an off day on New Year's when I know I'm not going to do anything. On a another note... I still haven't dyed my hair black. I want my hair black before I turn 18.