Posted on 25/5/2012

Lately I've been feeling super lonely and alone. Fuck it with friends. The few that I trust now, probably don't really have time for me. All of them are busy with either work or school. My boyfriend's always busy when he's at work. Barely has time to talk to me. On his first day off, 99% chance he'd spend the whole day sleeping. Then it depends on what we decide to do on his second day off. If we do not have enough money sometimes we'll end up sleeping half the day away and just lazing in bed, maybe that's most times. Either that or we'll watch movies, play games on our phones bla bla bla and again we have to sleep early because he's working tomorrow morning.

You know, that's the reason I want to work so badly. I just can't keep up with this anymore. I absolutely hate feeling alone. It does nothing but makes me over-think and get all depressed for nothing. Maybe it's not about the money after all. I just can't be alone anymore. It's driving me crazy, literally.

I gave up trying for Cotton On. I went for Hula and Co's interview this Monday. I'm just really hoping they'd call me back. I stopped thinking about giving air stewarding a try because of my height. I'm certain that I am shorter than 158cm by that bit which means 0 chance of me becoming an air stewardess. Honest to god, it sucks because that's my plan for the future. Now I need to re-think about my interests. Most probably I'm going back to ITE, next year. I don't have much of a choice actually. Besides private education.